I'm looking for any Yaoi manga which involves a guy who has a crush on his childhood friend and rapes him. His childhood friend gets traumatized and tries to avoid him as much as possible but it's still useless. The childhood friend still gets raped repeatedly but then he sort of likes it after a while then they fall in love (or not fall in love.)

It doesn't have to be exactly like what I wrote on top but it definitely has to have a high school setting and I hate feminine-like characters but I wouldn't mind if they were lol ok. Thanks~